"I'm not fat I'm big boned" - Eric Cartmen

Weighing in at 80kgs unfortuately for me means that im offically classed as obesse. Whenever I say this to people they dont believe me. I guess we all have grown to asociate obesesity with the size 20+ people we are so used to seeing on the TV. I am a size 16, infact when I was a size 14 I was still classified as obese. Starteling huh? They say the average woman is a size 14 so does this mean that the average woman is not just overweight according to there BMI but obese too?

Almost a year ago I went to the Sydney event for the "Rose of Tralee". The photos of that event were the "wake up call" for me. I didnt like what I saw in the photos. So I decided to take action. Unfortunately for me I have 3 big problems and Im sure many of you have these too:
1. Im one of the worst comfort eaters you will ever meet.When im sad, feeling sorry for myself or someone has gotten me down I reach for the chocolate, Ice-cream cake and coke. Anyone who is a comfort eater will tell you that sometimes you dont even think about what your doing, then next thing you know BAM!!!! wow I just ate 2 bars of choclate with 1 cup of tea.
2. Im a huge procrastinator. I will always find something else to do that takes me away from what im meant to be doing. per example, I am typing this blog when im meant to be cleaning. Or maybe staying in bed a little longer so i dont have to go to the GYM
and 3. I seriously lack willpower. Believe it or not its True. I sit here daily going to myself. DO something!! Go to the GYM, go for a run, Get on the Wii Fit. Instead I continue to sit at the laptop bored. Complaining that im bored. im unemployed so In theory I have no reason not to go to Curves for the 30mins session every day. But in general i just about scrape in my 3 workouts a week.

I joined Curves back in June after eventually getting some "willpower" to do something about the ever growing extra kilos ive been lugging around. I weighed in at 83kgs then. Then I lost my job, cue Binge Drinking and comfort eating to numb the pain. So by the time I started the weight management program in August I was up to 85kgs(main incentive for starting the program). By christmas I had lost 5kgs and  I have been fluctuating between 79 and 80.5 since then.. All I can say is that ive lost motivation again and recent events have not helped.

So today I decided that I need to get back on the bandwagon. I had a chat with Michelle at Curves in Petersham (there were almost tears). She called me a "serial faller off-er"! but congradulated me on keeping the 5kgs Off. We have set a goal for me of 75kgs for when my show is on in June. She is going to find an incentive for me to HAVE to go to the GYM everyday. So what I need for all of you is support so that I dont "Fall Off" again. I give you all full permission to smack me in the back of the head if you see me eating something I shouldnt, hell even if im eying it up give me a whack. Remind me about my goal.

I will keep you posted here on my successes and failures cause lets face it there will be some. Also I would just like to inform you all. I am doing this not because the TV and Magazines say i should be slimer but because I want to take action and prevent health issues. I am coming to an age where I could be high risk for a number of problems and I want to lower my chances of getting them.

Claire

Me 80kgs